Tobias having some playtime and practicing his "Mumumumum"

Wednesday 16th of March 2011

So.. Centrelink sent me a letter today.. My baby bonus has run out. I was really hoping to be working more by now, making up the money that I wouldn't be getting.. :S So now its time to make up a budget. How is everyone coping financially?
I am really bored alot. I'd love to go get a hair cut, physio, a massage etc but I am always stuck with Tobias. :/

We're back!

Hi everyone. Sorry it has been so long inbetween posts. I haven't really had much to say. Tobias is 10kgs and 71cms long/tall. I am still looking into daycare for him so I can get back into study. Its moments like the one I had yesterday that make me wish there was some kind of instant fix. Last night we were all at mums for dinner. My older brother and sister and my younger brother were all busy with their heads in their homework, all busy studying away while I was sitting there with Tobias watching TV. It really makes me feel belittled especially when they talk about how proud they are of each other. I wish I could be studying right now. I feel as though I wont ever look like I am trying my hardest at life until I am studying and have a good job as well as doing an outstanding job as a mum. Until then I feel like everyone is looking down their noses at me. I am also struggling with my ability to cope with every day life. Its hard but I just try to take it one hour at a time. I'm afraid it reflects in my attitude towards everyone lately. I have been very snappy and down alot. I dont mean to offend or annoy everyone but that is what ends up happening when I can't control my attitude. I just feel tired all the time. Lethargic like i have no energy or even the will to do anything at all.