We are on the mend!

Hi everyone! Well Tobias is looking much better and I am almost back in good health. Just a bit stuffy in the head with an occasional cough. Today I went and bought one of those new gadgets that scans your photo negatives onto your computer so this afternoon I have got some old photos and put them on a hard drive as back up which for me was fun. It might seem boring to some people but we don't have actual photo copies of some of the negatives so some photos are ones we have not seen in around 10 or more years. I tried to post two photos (one of me as a toddler and one of Tobias for comparison) but for some reason the blogger photo upload is not working :( I will try again tomorrow perhaps. Anyways it is Midnight and I am extremely tired so unfortunately that is all I will be posting tonight. Goodnight my loyal fans! Sweet dreams xoxo

Tobias is still sick and so am I.

Hi everyone. I still can't see a light at the end of the tunnel as I am now sick too. I started to feel it on Sunday and yesterday my throat flared up and I just feel like crap. And Tobias is still really sick. He has spent the last week in bed most of the time. That is where he is now. I hate this cold. I really despise winter. I was supposed to see my councellor today (and I really need to) but that is not going to happen. :( I hate having no energy and I hate seeing Tobias like this.

I am not really sure what else to say. Because we are house bound I don't really have anything interesting to say. Anyways if something happens I'll let you know. Other than that I guess I'll come back when we are feeling better. Bye for now xoxo

Tobias is sick!! :(

Hi everyone. I have had a rough couple of days as Tobias is really sick. It started out as what seemed like a cold but now it is a full blown runny nose, croaky voice, flemmy cough, won't eat much, very sick, sickness. :( He has been so sooky it is definately not fun. Last night I gave him a dinner of just vegies in hope that the big rush of nutrients would help him feel better but he doesn't seem much better today. He ate some Farex for breakfast so hopefully that helps him feel a bit better. I have given him Nurofen and cuddles and he is just really sad. I don't know what else to do really. He doesn't have the energy to play so I have just layed him down in his cot with his mobile and heater on so hopefully he has a nap or something. It sucks having a sick baby. I just want him to get better but he just seems to be getting worse. I would take him to the doctors but they can't give him antibiotics so there really is no point. We just have to wait it out. Meanwhile I am just giving him lots of warm milk, water, Nurofen, and honey on his dummy. Any other ideas to help him get better quicker??

On a lighter note, yesterday we had a playdate with Connor and Patricia. They are a mum and bub I met when I stayed at Torrens house when Tobias was 3 months old. It was great to see them again and watch Tobias and Connor playing together. Tobias kept trying to get the toy that Connor had. He is a bit of a bully. That is definately something we will have to work on! :P
Patricia also gave me a new quilt and quilt cover set which is awesome! :) My bed is soooo nice and warm now and looks great :D

Anyways I am really hungry so I am going to find some food! :) Hope you all have a great day!

Hi guys! New Video!

Hi Everyone, I think this just about sums it up. I am in for some trouble now!! :S

Sorry I've been pretty slack lately...

Hi all, how are you? Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have just been going through some photos and footage. I can't believe how fast the last 6 years have gone. Its just flown! And the sad thing is I really believe I wasted it. I slacked off in school, didn't complete my sace, and am still working at McDonalds. Other people I know are coming up to the stage of completely Tafe and half way through University, and some are really going up in the world. I just think to myself, you had the same opportunities as them and look where you are. Stuck at home 24/7 with a baby, every day seeming exactly like the last. Things are progressing, yes, but at a pace so slow it makes me want to just give up out of frustration. I have found a program that will help me complete my sace and hopefully help me get into Tafe. Its with Louise Place in Adelaide. It is a learn-at-your-own-pace program for young mums with carers who watch your baby for you while you are in class.

Anyways at the moment Tobias is being really difficult and not going to sleep and he is really starting to get on my nerves. I have fed him, changed him, sung to him played with him etc etc etc tucked him in nice and tight and warm and he is just being a real sook. Lets hope he calms down now and goes to sleep. My sister is out shopping with my mum and they have been out alll day since about 10:30 this morning. I'm feeling a bit lonely at the moment too.

On a different note, have you ever seen the movie "The Craft"? It is definately one of my all time favourite movies. It is actually like 10 (or more) years old and I only just saw it last week. I love it because I am really into wiccan and witches. I've only recently actually started researching it and such and I find it extremely fascinating. I would have loved to have been brought up around wicca so that I knew more about it. Being in touch with nature and connecting with it is a very interesting theory.
But my mum just thinks its all evil. She doesn't even like the fact that I have an anne stokes poster in my room. And she thinks the dark fairie statues I like are disgusting. It can be amusing and frustrating at the same time. :P

Oh and another confession I have is that earlier on today I was an absolute pig and ate about 3 quarters of a litre of ice cream. I know... naughty!! :S But it tastes soooooooooooo gooooood!!! It is the cadbury caramel ice cream. Caramel and chocolate ice cream with caramel sauce mixed through!) mmmm.. I eat when I am bored, lonely, or depressed. (So pretty much most of the time) :P

Hi sorry its been so long!

Hi everyone, how are you all? I'm ok. Just came on here to give you an update on my situation.
I saw my lawyer the other day to sign my response to Christophers affidavit so that it could be filed. And yesterday Christopher came to see Tobias for is weekly visit and I swear he couldn't get more annoying if he tried!! He sits there the whole time saying "my lawyer said this, my lawyer said that, bla blah blah!!" Its so frustrating! for example, "My lawyer isn't happy that I'm only seeing Tobias once a week, My lawyer is not happy that I am paying you $100 a fortnight, she wants me to go through child support, but I told her it was my choice, I said it's what I want to do, but she's still mad at me blah blah blah!" I feel like saying, "I don't care what your lawyer says! Just let the courts deal with it if you can't stand up to your own lawyer. Geez!"
Ugh, he is so stupid. Here is an example of that absolute nil awareness and common sense. Last week when we paid for the professional photos, This is what happened. We met at Centro Colonnades and went to the booth together. The photographers laid out all of the photos of Tobias so we could choose which ones we wanted. We chose, we paid, I took the photos (I will be making copies of them for Christopher next week) and we left.
Then, yesterday at mums house while he was visiting, he says, "So, have they taken the photos yet?"
ME: What photos?
CHRISTOPHER: The photos of Tobias?
ME: Has who taken what photos of Tobias?
CHRISTOPHER: Have those people that we paid last week taken photos of Tobias yet?
ME: What do you mean?
CHRISTOPHER: You know how we paid for some professional photos of Tobias last week?
ME: Yeah?
CHRISTOPHER: Well have they taken the photos yet?
ME: Are you kidding me? Are you seriously asking if they have done the photo session yet, when last week we looked at, and chose, our favourite photos of Tobias, paid for, and then collected them?
CHRISTOPHER: .... Um... Yeah?
ME: *Under my breath* Oh. My. God.
CHRISTOPHER: What?
ME: You are so much dumber than I thought. Whose kid did you think you were looking at? Are you seriously telling me you didn't know that was Tobias?
CHRISTOPHER: I don't know...

Oh My GOD! He is so Stupid!!!! And if that isn't bad enough...

When it was time to leave Christopher carried Tobias out to the car, Christine has her bag and some toys and I had my bag and some toys and the blanket. Christine opens the boot and she and I put the toys and blanket into the boot. I step back and Christopher steps forward and leans in to put TOBIAS IN THE BOOT! WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! I quickly put my arm in the way and grab Tobias and say "What are you doing!??!?!?!?!"
CHRISTOPHER: Putting Toby in.. Um.. *goes quiet*

Seriously. He has ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways thats my rant for now. Tobias is getting cranky so I'd better go.

I'm getting a massage today!

Hi everyone! i don't mean to brag, but I am sitting in the waiting room at my physiothearaists waiting to get a massage! It's a whole hour of complete relaxation! :D I am sooooo excited I can't wait!! I just hope that she doesn't want to talk much during this session. I usually come here once a week for actual physiothearapy on my back, neck and shoulders and we usually have a chat during those sessions. But I'd really just like to chill out this time. :)
Also I might be picking up my new glasses today. They are white with zebra stripes on the side. They are my most adventurous glasses I have ever ordered! :) I usually just get plain black or single coloured ones. And this is also payday (or as I like to call it, "D-day"). :S Its the day I get paid and also have to pay the rent, do a HUGE grocery shop AND put aside the bill money. It is also very scary to see how much is left over after doing all that! :S ok, I will check back with you all later xoxo