Hi all, how are you? Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have just been going through some photos and footage. I can't believe how fast the last 6 years have gone. Its just flown! And the sad thing is I really believe I wasted it. I slacked off in school, didn't complete my sace, and am still working at McDonalds. Other people I know are coming up to the stage of completely Tafe and half way through University, and some are really going up in the world. I just think to myself, you had the same opportunities as them and look where you are. Stuck at home 24/7 with a baby, every day seeming exactly like the last. Things are progressing, yes, but at a pace so slow it makes me want to just give up out of frustration. I have found a program that will help me complete my sace and hopefully help me get into Tafe. Its with Louise Place in Adelaide. It is a learn-at-your-own-pace program for young mums with carers who watch your baby for you while you are in class.
Anyways at the moment Tobias is being really difficult and not going to sleep and he is really starting to get on my nerves. I have fed him, changed him, sung to him played with him etc etc etc tucked him in nice and tight and warm and he is just being a real sook. Lets hope he calms down now and goes to sleep. My sister is out shopping with my mum and they have been out alll day since about 10:30 this morning. I'm feeling a bit lonely at the moment too.
On a different note, have you ever seen the movie "The Craft"? It is definately one of my all time favourite movies. It is actually like 10 (or more) years old and I only just saw it last week. I love it because I am really into wiccan and witches. I've only recently actually started researching it and such and I find it extremely fascinating. I would have loved to have been brought up around wicca so that I knew more about it. Being in touch with nature and connecting with it is a very interesting theory.
But my mum just thinks its all evil. She doesn't even like the fact that I have an anne stokes poster in my room. And she thinks the dark fairie statues I like are disgusting. It can be amusing and frustrating at the same time. :P
Oh and another confession I have is that earlier on today I was an absolute pig and ate about 3 quarters of a litre of ice cream. I know... naughty!! :S But it tastes soooooooooooo gooooood!!! It is the cadbury caramel ice cream. Caramel and chocolate ice cream with caramel sauce mixed through!) mmmm.. I eat when I am bored, lonely, or depressed. (So pretty much most of the time) :P
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