Back again :)

Hi all, yes I'm back for another round while Tobias is asleep. This is actually quite fun because it gives me something to do and something for you to read. :) Lol even if it is just a whole bunch of babble.
Can I ask you a question? What do you guys think of online dating? I do it to knida kill time when Tobias is asleep, hoping to meet someone genuine. The chances of that are so incredibly slim, almost every guy I talk to instantly begins flirting and hinting about jumping into bed. Its So FRUSTRATING! I just tell them all to bugger off because thats not what I am looking for. Its such a pain. Then when you do end up meeting someone who isnt like that they are not interested in going out with someone who has a son. (Which is understandable I suppose). I get really annoyed sometimes when I think about that. I cant just go out when I want anymore, cant stay out late or go out to dinner with a man unless I bring the pram and that just makes it awkward. :/
I'm sure alot of you would probably tell me how selfish I am being and how I shouuld just be focusing on Tobias but I have needs too.
If I just focused on Tobias all the time and push my needs away into a dusty old corner and never paid them any attention I know I would get depressed. How do I know this? Well because I tried it and that is what happened. It's just the way I am. I get lonely very easily and I crave cuddles late at night. At least by going on Oasis every now and again I can keep my loneliness at bay. And it kinda helps me think, "See? Haha you don't really need a guy, they are all too sleazy." So i back off a bit and I feel better for it. :)
I dont know if this is making sense to you. I hope so. Maybe you feel like that too sometimes? Let me know :) Bye for now :) xoxo