Hi sorry its been so long!

Hi everyone, how are you all? I'm ok. Just came on here to give you an update on my situation.
I saw my lawyer the other day to sign my response to Christophers affidavit so that it could be filed. And yesterday Christopher came to see Tobias for is weekly visit and I swear he couldn't get more annoying if he tried!! He sits there the whole time saying "my lawyer said this, my lawyer said that, bla blah blah!!" Its so frustrating! for example, "My lawyer isn't happy that I'm only seeing Tobias once a week, My lawyer is not happy that I am paying you $100 a fortnight, she wants me to go through child support, but I told her it was my choice, I said it's what I want to do, but she's still mad at me blah blah blah!" I feel like saying, "I don't care what your lawyer says! Just let the courts deal with it if you can't stand up to your own lawyer. Geez!"
Ugh, he is so stupid. Here is an example of that absolute nil awareness and common sense. Last week when we paid for the professional photos, This is what happened. We met at Centro Colonnades and went to the booth together. The photographers laid out all of the photos of Tobias so we could choose which ones we wanted. We chose, we paid, I took the photos (I will be making copies of them for Christopher next week) and we left.
Then, yesterday at mums house while he was visiting, he says, "So, have they taken the photos yet?"
ME: What photos?
CHRISTOPHER: The photos of Tobias?
ME: Has who taken what photos of Tobias?
CHRISTOPHER: Have those people that we paid last week taken photos of Tobias yet?
ME: What do you mean?
CHRISTOPHER: You know how we paid for some professional photos of Tobias last week?
ME: Yeah?
CHRISTOPHER: Well have they taken the photos yet?
ME: Are you kidding me? Are you seriously asking if they have done the photo session yet, when last week we looked at, and chose, our favourite photos of Tobias, paid for, and then collected them?
CHRISTOPHER: .... Um... Yeah?
ME: *Under my breath* Oh. My. God.
CHRISTOPHER: What?
ME: You are so much dumber than I thought. Whose kid did you think you were looking at? Are you seriously telling me you didn't know that was Tobias?
CHRISTOPHER: I don't know...

Oh My GOD! He is so Stupid!!!! And if that isn't bad enough...

When it was time to leave Christopher carried Tobias out to the car, Christine has her bag and some toys and I had my bag and some toys and the blanket. Christine opens the boot and she and I put the toys and blanket into the boot. I step back and Christopher steps forward and leans in to put TOBIAS IN THE BOOT! WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! I quickly put my arm in the way and grab Tobias and say "What are you doing!??!?!?!?!"
CHRISTOPHER: Putting Toby in.. Um.. *goes quiet*

Seriously. He has ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways thats my rant for now. Tobias is getting cranky so I'd better go.

I'm getting a massage today!

Hi everyone! i don't mean to brag, but I am sitting in the waiting room at my physiothearaists waiting to get a massage! It's a whole hour of complete relaxation! :D I am sooooo excited I can't wait!! I just hope that she doesn't want to talk much during this session. I usually come here once a week for actual physiothearapy on my back, neck and shoulders and we usually have a chat during those sessions. But I'd really just like to chill out this time. :)
Also I might be picking up my new glasses today. They are white with zebra stripes on the side. They are my most adventurous glasses I have ever ordered! :) I usually just get plain black or single coloured ones. And this is also payday (or as I like to call it, "D-day"). :S Its the day I get paid and also have to pay the rent, do a HUGE grocery shop AND put aside the bill money. It is also very scary to see how much is left over after doing all that! :S ok, I will check back with you all later xoxo

Hello :)

Hi everyone, sorry its been a while since my last post. How are you all? I saw my lawyer today to discuss my response to Christopher's affidavit in regards to Tobias. I am now sitting at home watching Primevil, a new show which looks like something inspired by Jurassic Park. I love Jurassic Park :) I don't know why. I think maybe it's because it is predictable? Tobias is in bed, he went to bed at 7pm and I am hoping he sleeps through tonight as he has not had much sleep today. Tomorrow I am very excited because I have booked myself in for a massage at my physiothearapist. I can't wait! Anyways, I don't really have anything new to say at the moment. Stay tuned though :) xoxo

Kadina today to relax... :)

Good morning everyone!
so, today is going to be a nice relaxing day once we actually get on the road but at the moment I am in the nursary waiting for the bath to fill up so we can get ready. Tobias has had brekky, I just gave him some fruit custard this morning as a treat because he's been having weetbix like every day. He is being very noisy this morning and I seriously cannot wait to get going.
We have relatives that live in Kadina so that is the main reason we are going there. My mums dad, mum and some sisters live there. Kadina, incase you don't know is a small country town about 2 hours drive northish out of Adelaide. My sister and I have started a tradition that whenever we go to Kadina and have dinner at the pub we play $10 on the pokies. :) Its heaps of fun because my way of doing it is too keep everything I win back (that includes adding up every 10 cents I win back too, so I usually only loose like 3 bucks if I don't win anything :)
And yesterday I decorated another cake. :) ok, so thats all for now but I might come back later while we are on the road if I'm bored. Xoxo

So it turned out ok..

Ok so, Christine ended up cleaning the bathroom this morning before leaving for work which was awesome. She also dried the dishes and put them away. :) I really appreciate it when she helps out with the house work. Like when she hangs out my washing. I just get frustrated somethimes when her birds make a mess.

As for the visit with Tobias's dad, it was awkward for me but thanks to mum being there it was a little bit better than last time. He just sat on the floor playing with him most of the time.

Anyway Tobias just woke up and I have to get the birds some dinner and such so I'd better get moving. xoxo

Its a freezing start to the day.

So, today is Thursday and I usually go to "Mums 'R' Us" on Thursday mornings but unfortunately Tobias still has a runny nose and I don't want him passing on his germs to other kids. But I also have my councelling appointment at 1pm today and I really don't think missing that is an option. So mum is going to walk to her work where Christine has the car (she is working an early shift today) and mum is going to pick me up and look after Tobias while I'm at my appointment. Yay :) That will be sooooo good. He is usually with me and can be quite distracting while we are trying to talk.

Right now he is with me in the lounge room crawling around having a play before his morning nap.
I was just thinking about my "perfect day" and this is what I came up with:

1) A whole day without Tobias
2) A massage at a day spa
3) A new disney movie to watch while somebody brushes my hair
4) Chinese Take away for dinner while watching the sunset at the beach (in the car)
5) Chocolate and caramel ice cream with gooey caramel topping for dessert in a cozy warm lounge room watching funniest home videos :)

What is your idea of a perfect day? xoxo

My poor toe!

Hi everyone. Well I pretty much wasted my afternoon today. At about 1:45pm Tobias was on his way into the bathroom and I ran over and shut the door... over my little pinky toe on my right foot. Well, that frikkin hurt!! I couldn't walk on it or even wriggle it a little because it hurt so much. I was stressing out because that is the last thing I needed. I called mum because Christine had taken the car out. Christine picked up mum and came home to babysit Tobias while I went to the doctors fearing the worst. We ended up having to wait like 3 hours to see a doctor and by then the pain had subsided and it is now just a dull throb and I can walk but not properly, I just sort of limp along with my toes up. I am hoping it just gets better but the doctor booked me for an xray tomorrow just incase because it might be fractured or something.

While we were gone Tobias was very loud and did not have an afternoon nap so you can imagine how pleased Christine was. But now Tobias is finally in bed and we can enjoy the peace and quiet. Anyways, I'm about to check out the TAFE SA website to see if applications are still open. I might be lucky. Fingers crossed!! xoxo

Prepare to be shocked!!!!

Hi everyone. You are not going to believe what happened at Tobias's Paediatric appointment yesterday.
When Tobias was born he came out with a lump on his head. They were a bit worried about it so just to make sure everything was ok they gave it an ultrasound. The lump was not attatched to or extended through Tobias's skull so all of the doctors and specialists labelled it simply a "strawberry" which occurs when during labour the baby is sitting on and putting a lot of pressure on the cervix. sort of like if you stuck the end of a vaccuum cleaner on your head and left it sucking there for too long. Strawberries are very common and they usually "deflate" inbetween 6 months and 2 years. Well Tobias's lump had already deflated, infact, it had become an indent on his head. And the skin in that indent was different to the rest of his skin. It is hard, stiff and a different cloudy white colour.
When the paediatrition looked at Tobias's head yesterday he was quite shocked and told me that the bump clearly was not a "strawberry" as everyone had thought. It was infact a growth, a very very rare deformity and now as a result, Tobias would be stuck with this indent all his life. But, it would be dangerous to leave it as it is because that skin in his indent is missing alot of vital pigments (it is missing all muscle, fat and pigments that regular skin has). And as such, that patch of skin is like a ticking time bomb for sun/skin cancer. So Tobias will have to have plastic surgery to get the indent of skin removed. He must get it done now as a baby because it will just get extremely complicated the older he gets. So, after the operation he will be left with a level head but a lifelong scar. It was such a shock!! :(
My paediatrition is going to write me a referral to a plastic surgen so we can start the ball rolling on getting this fixed as soon as possible. I'll check back with you later but right now Tobias is getting into the recycling basket in the kitchen! xoxo

Back for another post cause I have nothing else to do

Hello again!

Well I am in a great mood! Thanks to one particular reader :D Thank you for your lovely comment Hannah :D It is so reassuring to know that someone actually appreciates my blog.

Tobias is in bed again so I thought I'd do something different for a change and post about one of my favourite hobbies: Cake Decorating. I love cake decorating! I'm not great at it but its something I'd love to study and get lots of practice in on. I have done a few cakes in the past. One for my brother's birthday and one for my sister's birthday but most of the others were just for the fun of it. I would love to do it more often but I hardly ever get the chance (special occasions are quite rare). I find I am more creative when I am given a theme to work with.

As you can see my best work was my brother's birthday cake. I used a photo of his motorbike and just tried to make it look as close to that as possible. I baked a chocolate square cake then drew a rough outline of his bike on a piece of paper, cut that out, and used it as a stencil to cut around. Once I had the shape of the bike I just used writing icing and those little edible silver balls to "colour it in". Then I put chocolate icing around the outside (just because it tasted amazing and I knew he'd love it!) :)

My sisters cake was just a rush job so it didn't turn out as nice as I would have liked but it still looked pretty good.
The blue one with the flower was done for my mum for mothers day. The flower is actually just a few marshmallows cut in half and stuck down with yellow icing in the middle.
The winnie the pooh cake was my first attempt at a character cake. I was really disapponted with the outcome because I had set my expectations way too high. But at least now I know what it is like working with icing trying to draw something.

The "Mums 'R' Us" cake was one that I made for my young mums group. It is decorated completely with marzipan except for the faces and writing. (thats writing icing). That was my first ever marzipan cake. I fell in love with marzipan after that!!

Anyways thanks for reading! :D

Another long day ahead 6/6/2011

Hi everyone. How are you all? Well today we are off to an okish start. Tobias woke up at 6am and went back for a nap at about 9:15 then woke up at about 10. Now we are sitting in the lounge room after a busy morning of cleaning and such. My sister left the house at 7:30am and won't return home until 9pm, so it is a very long lonely day at home. I really need to get some groceries but shouldn't really take Tobias out in the cold while he is sick.
I wonder who is actually reading this?
Anyways, I am really bored. I'm thinking of watching a movie but I've watched every dvd in this house and am craving something new.
On a lighter note, I had a good night with Tobias as he slept through from about 8pm til 6am which was awesome :) Ok, well, thats all I've really got to say today.
Hope you all have an awesome day. xoxo

Sorry about yesterdays outburst...

Hi all,

Please accept my apologies for yesterdays rant.
Tobias is still sick and it has been diagnosed as a simple cold and we just have to wait it out. My sister is working 12pm-8:30pm again today so its another long lonely day stuck at home. I did invite some friends over but they never replied to my messages. I can't say I'm surprised.

It is freeeeeezing too which sucks.
But on a lighter note, today is the first day that I am wearing contacts. It's just a trial run for a few days, just to see if I would prefer them or glasses. Well I'll tell you one thing, it is sooooooo weird being able to see clearly, then looking in the mirror and not seeing a pair of glasses. And not having to keep pushing them back up. Its awesome :)

Anyway, my plans for today are to clean up and then sit around waiting to hear back from my friends. And of course look after Tobias. He was up every hour and a half last night. Just crying and snuffling. I feel for him, I really do, but at the same time I was just soooo dead tired that all I wanted to do was cry too. Especially after the crap day I had emotionally. I don't deal with stress very well. I am an emotional eater which is a terrible habit. I've put on so much weight because when I am stressed and depressed I just eat and eat and eat!! Yesterday I ate Jelly, Ice cream, weetbix, leftovers and just anything else I could find. It's not good.

Anyway I hope you are all doing ok. xx